Mikes Thoughts

going back is forward

Lately I’ve tried new things for my personal journaling. I guess the blog is public journaling or as I called it this commonplace. I got unhappy with some of the writing. Desired change for whatever reason so I played at something. I tried something else awhile. What I realized even though it’s so cool it’s just not the way I want to write. It’s like putting on some show of what I was not so I could point and say,

See I can do this convoluted and complex writing thing too

But if it brings no inner joy or it makes me feel better I wonder. Why do it? I realized this writing. This whole 11ty thing gives me the best route to my joy. I also built a more complex writing experience to see if it’s something I could do. Or want to do. The answer was no. Just because I can do a thing, there’s no reason to do it if when I go for it I get no satisfaction or joy. If it brings me nothing and I decide to do it anyways what’s the point.

So going back was easy thanks to GitHub. Taking that repo back. Publishing through vercel. Making it mine.

Now we sit for coffee at the river on a Friday. Normally we go once a month for a meal out. So even this is going to something. And I find that back is forward. Life is not a circle or an arrow. It’s going back to go forward. Sometimes.