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Much like ldstephens blog recently. I decided to go play in other places awhile. I had gotten kinda tired of the whole GitHub and netlify things. Thought I would just go try something else awhile. It didn’t work for me. I don’t know why really but this writing on 11ty does work. It’s this simple reality I guess.

New year new things

We have this new year so I used it to gently reboot things and start fresh again. I have a bunch of older blog posts out there in iCloud land. Since they are all markdown and this blog loves markdown it’s easy. I could copy over the files and they’d appear after netlify decided they were worthy. I probably will not do this right away. I don’t hold a lot of desire for old writing. Like old journaling to me really. There’s nothing from a journal in December 2025 that holds me now. Those feelings, doubts and thoughts for then. I don’t agree I need to read back at how I felt a year ago about a thing and that informs me how I should feel now. Everything is change. Part of everything is this blog and my daily journal.

I have the same things I want to write here. My daily exasperation and doubts. My thoughts. Don’t look for guiding principles or underlying reality. Perhaps it’s like what Edward Abbey said about reality,

I must confess that I know nothing whatsoever about true underlying reality, never having met any.

Source: Edward Abbey

So instead I just sit with a nicely prepared iced americano. Decide that this morning in Siem Reap is worthy. I find my doubts. My little reflections. My new year where change comes in jumps and starts. Kind of like the “punctuated equilibrium” of yore [1].

So perhaps I too have these bouts of stasis and then I run rampant on some shorter change. Where I lift and separate. Find that the old stasis did nothing or led to the desire for change. Maybe I don’t like slow and gradual. Or I just wanna mix it up.

Whatever way it is it just happens however. I sometimes feel like watching the show on some sideline cheering or doubting the change. Wanting it to happen.

Instead of this I’ll take the path now. Write and change how I want. I’m not a sideline guest. I am not a master of my destiny. I flit around between and make things and then decide to change. And before you know it, I’m back. Back here.

  1. Punctuated equilibrium is an evolutionary theory proposing that species experience long periods of stability (stasis) interrupted by relatively short, rapid bursts of significant evolutionary change and speciation, contrasting with gradualism's slow, continuous change. ↩︎